The trigger for commencing writing this story was after reading a quote from the deceased actor Robin Williams
“I used to think that worst thing in life was to end up all alone. It’s not.
The worst thing in life is the end up with people that make you feel all alone.
-Robin Williams, Actor”
I can concur with feeling ‘all alone’ in a marriage.
For the past, nearly seven years up until nine months ago when we decided to separate, a decision at the time was very painful for me, but the right thing to do, as our marriage was too difficult when the other party has unresolved issues, which they are not prepared to work on resolving.
To remedy my loneliness’ in our marriage I got involved in community projects, where I felt that I was making a difference in the community. In an attempt to encourage my husband, I tried to get him interested in similar projects which he would enjoy.
Unfortunately, he had no interest in anything much, just wanted me by his side 24 x 7 doing nothing much, other than the occasional coffee at a café’ where he would read the café’s newspaper and I would attend to my iPhone’s emails and messages. Some existence!
When you are an active person, who I am, sitting around the house doing nothing is not the type of existence in my older years, especially when I retired early from senior management positions.
Now nine months on from our separation, I feel more content and certainly not feeling alone.